Non Voglio Tornare!!!

Tommorow I would have to fly all the way to KL and take a taxi to a college in the middle of no where...It is the second time this year which I have used the above sentence...and this time, instead of not wanting to go home, I don't want to leave home. *deep sigh* How time passes.....Just seems like yesterday, I was freezing my butt off in front of the Alitalia, not wanting to get on...Oh well, life's like that!!!
I decided to drop accounting since it's taking a toll on my happiness and guess what, I will be taking up art...Why art? Well, I have absolutely no idea...I am desperate to drop accounting and am willing to take up anything else to make up for it. This is quite interesting cause my drawing skills is equivalent to a monkey's...Let's just say, I am brilliant at producing chaotic art!! Good luck to me!!

Anyway, I found this pretty interesting. A parody of Psalm 23.

A Student Psalm
The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not flunk;
He keepeth me from lying down when I should be studying.
He leadeth me beside the water cooler for a study break;
He restores my faith in study guides.
He leads me to better study habits for my grades' sake,
Yea, tho' I walk thru the valley of borderline grades,
I will not have a nervous breakdown; for Thou art with me;
My prayers and my friends, they comfort me.
Thou givest me the answers in moments of blankness;
Thou anointest my head with understanding,
My test paper runneth over with questions I recognise.
Surely passing grades and flying colors
Shall follow me all the days of examinations,
And I shall not have to dwell in this university forever !
Amen !

A symbol of Beauty, Elegance and Grace

I adore her. I am devoted to her. I idolize her.


Aurelie Dupont of Paris Opera Ballet. Etoile. What is so special about her? Repeatedly have I ask myself the same question over and over again, pondering upon thoughts after thoughts, hoping one of them would be a satisfying answer.

So what exactly has captivated me? She is not as eminent as certain dancers, only known by a few. She will never achieve fame like the Great Fonteyn or Plisetskaya.


She doesn’t have a pretty face like Semionova or Dvorovenko.


She doesn’t have potent jetes like Alexandrova.

She doesn’t have the flexibility or control like Guillem.

She doesn’t have legs and arches like Zakharova.

She doesn’t create strong emotions like Ferri.


Maybe it’s because she doesn’t have anything special and that’s what makes her special to me.

Maybe it's her normal 100 degree arabesque, not too high not to low.


Maybe it's her slight wobble during the Rose Adagio. Quite normal for most dancers.

Maybe it's the coldness of her French style. Her dancing doesn't give out a fuzzy warm feeling like British dancers.

Maybe it's just everything put together with exact precision. She is perfect the way I see her. Nothing extreme. Just perfect on the right note.

Yes, I absolutely adore her to bits. So basically, this is a small tribute to the awesomous dancer that I have ever seen, Aurelie Dupont.

Ignorance is bliss!!

As days pass into weeks, a mind boggling thought emerges from the subconcious mind. Each day, I walk down the same old path, heading towards the sixth form, returning at certain hours of the day. I am worried, worried about what the future holds. Am I making the right choice? Well, I decided I did. But some people seem to think differently.

A certain somebody told me I had to be practical, more or less stating that a science kid is far more superior than an average artsy kid. Well, to not take that as an insult would be an insult itself to all the great ancient philosophers. I know the chinese mentality that most of us grew up in but to say that certain subjects are useless is being plain ignorant to the oncoming world. How so would you define useless? Taking Biology, Chemistry or Physics doesn't make you any smarter than someone taking History, Philosophy or Literature.

So should I be angry at a certain ignorant person? The answer is No. Instead, I should pity that kind of person, I feel sad that they do not understand how the world works. Only murdering their tiny brain cells with information without truly understanding it. A person starts off with nothing, but slowly builds up his or her understanding, so goes for the world. Theories wasn't just there, it was thought upon by geniuses beyond our generation.

Why do certain people think that only sciences are useful? Was it not that the ancient Greek philosphers that came out with most of what we learn in our modern text books? Or do they simply don't care but just digest information without much knowlegde involved?

It's sad when you see people like that. And it's even sadder when they just refuse to listen to other people's ideas. Only now, I truly understand the meaning of the title above. And I am glad that at least, I would give myself a chance to understand the real meaning of knowledge.

In the moment of despair

Yes, I am facing hardship here. Yes, I am deeply troubled right now. And yes, I am almost in despair. First, I am worried, really really worried actually. I can't finish my prep. Not just I can't finish, I don't know how to finish my prep.
As days turn into weeks, the burden within grows with astonishing speed. The dilemas in my mind expand furiously, breaking into every bit, troubling me endlessly. Deadlines unmet, yet I sit here, half wondering what to do, other half refusing what I should do. Worries, I can't stop worrying yet I can't take the initiative to stop it. Despair creeps from behind, circling my thoughts, blanketing every piece of my soul..
But, there is always hope. There will always be someone to lend a helping hand, someone to trust. As time moves on, so do I. Bit by bit, hope pieces everything together. From all the essays I have to write to all the sports all I have to do. Yes, I can do it. Yes, nothing is gonna stop me. Yes, I know I can. Whatever doesn't kill me makes me stronger!! So to whoever is facing difficulties now, don't give up. You're not going to die, unless your problem is really really serious and involves death if not solved, but that's hardly the case. So I guess the point of this post is just to say, in every moment of despair, there always hope, and our human instint would basically not lead us continuosly in despair but try to turn it around.

Ps: If you are wondering what I am desparing about, well, I got 7 essays to complete right now plus some tests next week.

Welcome to Deb's personal blog

Welcome my good people to my personal blog. I decided to make my own blog since I can't really post what's going on around me on losers and lamers unless what goes on around is really loseristic. Well, this is my comfort zone, where I can complain all I want, pour our all my incredible sometimes pathetic thoughts here. So, if you can't stand me nagging and complaining well, too bad then when you accidentally stumbled across my blog. So, that basically my kinda vague and lame intro. Ciao!!

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